I marvelled at this sudden change for methought it was a privy working of God, and not of nature. And then I weened in sooth to have passed.Īnd in this suddenly all my pain was taken from me, and I was as whole (and specially in the upper part of my body) as ever I was afore. All that was away from the Cross was of horror to me, as if it had been greatly occupied by the fiends.Īfter this the upper part of my body began to die, so far forth that scarcely I had any feeling -with shortness of breath. the Image of the Cross whereon I beheld a common light and I wist not how. For methought I might longer dure to look evenforth than right up.Īfter this my sight began to fail, and it was all dark about me in the chamber, as if it had been night, save in Methought I was well, for my eyes were set uprightward unto Heaven, where I trusted to come by the mercy of God but nevertheless I assented to set my eyes on the face of the Crucifix, if I might and so I did. He set the Cross before my face and said: I have brought thee the Image of thy Maker and Saviour: look thereupon and comfort thee therewith. My Curate was sent for to be at my ending, and by that time when he came I had set my eyes, and might not speak.

Then was I minded to be set upright, backward leaning, with help,-for to have more freedom of my heart to be at God's will, and thinking on God while my life would last. Thus I dured till day, and by then my body was dead from the middle downwards, as to my feeling. Wherefore I thought: Good Lord, may my living no longer be to Thy worship! And I understood by my reason and by my feeling of my pains that I should die and I assented fully with all the will of my heart to be at God's will. For methought all the time that I had lived here so little and so short in regard of that endless bliss,-I thought nothing. But it was to have lived that I might have loved God better, and longer time, that I might have the more knowing and loving of God in bliss of Heaven. And after this I languored forth two days and two nights, and on the third night I weened oftentimes to have passed and so weened they that were with me.Īnd being in youth as yet, I thought it great sorrow to die -but for nothing that was in earth that meliked to live for, nor for no pain that I had fear of: for I AND when I was thirty years old and a half, God sent me a bodily sickness, in which I lay three days and three nights and on the fourth night I took all my rites of Holy Church, and weened not to have lived till day.

Julian revelations of divine love